I know, I know—it’s been a while since I last posted a blog. I’m so sorry! Please don’t be mad at me.

But, I have exciting news! I would like to cordially invite you to our upcoming event featuring Rev. Dr. Tresmaine Grimes! YAYYYY!

Dr. Grimes is no stranger to B.O.O.M! In fact, she was one of the first supporters, sitting down with me to discuss and pray when God placed it on my heart to start this journey.

The purpose of this event is simple: WORSHIP… PRAYER… DELIVERANCE!

Even though I’m in ministry, pray for others, and serve alongside my husband as leaders in ministry, the truth is, I’m still human. I have real human struggles, and I, too, need deliverance. And I know I’m not the only one.

If we’re honest, we all need deliverance. If we’re alive and have blood running through our veins, there’s some area in our lives where we’re struggling—whether big or small. The truth is, most people don’t want to talk about their struggles publicly. For some, certain struggles are shameful, embarrassing, and there simply isn’t a safe space to discuss them.

B.O.O.M! was birthed out of my own need to overcome obesity. Interestingly enough, when I began this journey, I discovered that I wasn’t the only one struggling—not just with weight, but with life in general. People responded with a sigh of relief, glad to know there was someone brave enough to say, “I’m struggling, and I need deliverance,” no matter who they are—whether in ministry, leadership, or not.

So, if you need refreshing, join us. If you simply want to worship and be in the presence of God, join us! If you need deliverance, JOIN US!

If God birthed this, it is His obligation and goodwill to bless it, and to make His presence known. I’m expecting a great move of God—join me!

Today, wherever you find yourself, be encouraged!

Let me say that again: Be Encouraged! 

Continue to join me as I share with you what God is sharing with me about overcoming.

So, again, Be encouraged, stay connected, and let’s become free… together!

With love,

Ke’Shawn Hill-Adamson
B.O.O.M!

PS – For those who are not local, the Zoom ID and Passcode are included on the flyer.

So grateful you stopped by!!!

It’s been a while since I hosted any B.O.O.M! events since COVID-19, but Thanks Be To God, here it is!!!

Come and get soaked in the presence of God and hear what Thus Saith The Lord!!!

An intimate evening of worship, prayer, deep intercession, and a POWERFUL, POWERFUL, POWERFUL, BREAKING FREE, and BREAKTHROUGH Word of God. Come hear Rev. Grimes as she shares about the woman afflicted by a spirit and crippled with a bent spine in Luke 13:10-17 and let’s learn how to become free…together!

B.O.O.M! event hosted by Gospel Tabernacle Church of Christ, New Rochelle, NY!, Pastor Richard Adamson, Sr.

Be encouraged, stay connected, and join me as I share with you what Christ is sharing with me about overcoming and Let’s Become Free Together!!!

Your’s in Christ,

Ke’Shawn Hill-Adamson, Founder
Boom4christ.com

It’s been a while since I’ve been able to write. After a long journey of waiting on The Lord to show me my next door and window to fulfill my calling, I finally heard the call. I’ve been spending my time in quarantine preparing for this next phase in my life, helping people, as I do with B.O.O.M!, but now, in my career & ministry helping people become UNSTUCK! But this time, serving people that are struggling with the paralysis of grief, loss, and pain.

Looking back over my life, I can see why the devil fought me so hard. The enemy saw what I didn’t see…my own capability in Christ to get free, and not just get free, but help others get free. He knew if I got free, he’d be in serious trouble.

You may ask, “Get free from what?”

A lifetime of mourning and complicated grief. Cycles of sadness & depression. Fear. Obesity (which I’m still overcoming.) Ungodly soul ties. Bad relationships. Fornication. Addiction. Generational curses. Rejection. Illegitimacy. Spiritual attacks. Rebellion and plain ole running from God which, left the door wide open to satan attacking me moment by moment…ABSOLUTELY NO PEACE!

The bad thing was, no one knew I was struggling, and, no one could help.

I covered it up well because I was educated, I had important titles, and, I was in church, in ministry, and SEEMED ok, well put together, but behind that well-lit smile, while I was alone, I was tormented. I carried on like business as usual and no one knew that I was struggling with strongholds, ungodly soul ties that would manifest whenever an ANOINTED Godly person was around…I couldn’t stick around that person for too long and, I avoided them at all costs. Whenever I was around a true spirit-led person, I felt like vomiting. I understand why now, whatever stronghold had me bound, it would manifest being around God’s presence and make me flee, cringe or get sick.

The devil didn’t care that I was IN CHURCH…IN MINISTRY…as long as I kept doing the Lord’s work, busy for the Lord, as long as my condition stayed the same, he was ok. The devil was absolutely fine with me being in church as long as I was unaware of his tactics. But one day, for several months, I felt as though life was being sucked out of me and I sought God for an answer.

I may have been struggling with a lot inwardly, but my saving grace is that I did pray and always did from the time I was a kid. What I did have going for me was a morning devotion no matter what devilish things I was doing, I read my word and, talked to God. I did know Him and I heard him. But, I was running from Him. But, the Lord gave me enough wisdom even in my craziness, I knew my life without Him, would never do.

I was crashing and completely burnt out and it wasn’t simply a tired type of burnout, but my soul I felt my soul was empty.

I literally felt the scum of the world on me and in the midst of my sin, I would feel God’s presence hovering over me. God was slow-walking me down and I couldn’t escape His presence though I ran like hell.

I heard the Lord giving me an ultimatum, “you will never have peace until you let go of that thing you love more than me, the world. That man. The sex. The drinking. Partying. Indulging. You want me and the world and you can’t have both. Choose today, who will you serve?”

I was in church, doing the most, led worship, sang in two choirs, went to bible study, Sunday school, traveled with the church, etc. I called myself taking my time separating from the world, but, my partnership with satan was killing me slowly.

I was doing a lot in church, but what I really needed was healing.

You see, I was Martha. I was busy doing the Lord’s work, but, I was missing Jesus in the process. I had an ungodly soul tie that needed breaking. I had childhood wounds that needed healing. I had trauma and hurt that could stretch across the earth and long as I was busy, the devil was cool with that because I was only treating the surface.

God wanted more for me and from me. Jesus no longer wanted parts of me…He wanted all of me, most importantly, Jesus wanted my heart.

This is where my journey of deliverance began…acknowledging that I was empty, hungry, thirsty, sick, and tired of being sick and tired and was desperate for more. I needed a fresh infilling, a new power, but while in prayer, He would have me randomly turn to this scripture:

Matthew 9:17 (GNT)
17 Nor does anyone pour new wine into used wineskins, for the skins will burst, the wine will pour out, and the skins will be ruined. Instead, new wine is poured into fresh wineskins, and both will keep in good condition.”

I never understood what The Lord was trying to say to me, but I do now. I kept asking Him for more, but I was in my own way hindering that prayer.

The Lord desires more than church attendance, church fundraisers, fish fry’s, ushering, sanging, etc., but desires our willingness to surrender our ENTIRE lives to Him so He can have His way. He can’t pour His power into unfit, unclean, or partial willing vessels because the results would be disastrous.

He wants fully surrendered vessels to pour in His new wine so He can do a new thing. But, you have to let go of whatever you are holding onto.

The first part of my deliverance was being desperate, willing to sacrifice any and everything to him being willing to even die fighting in Jesus for your freedom.

Are you hungry? Thirsty? Crushed? Struggling? Bound? Sick & tired of your current state?

Today, if you hear his voice, harden not your heart. Surrender your all to Jesus.

If you’re struggling with sin, confess that sin to Jesus. Even confess if you still enjoy the sin you’re in, you can tell Him, “Lord, I know this is wrong, but I love doing_______________ but in the Name of Jesus, I thank you for taking the taste of __________out of my heart and mouth in Jesus name. Thank you for making me free from__________ in Jesus name.” Then, keep confessing that prayer.

Keep surrendering and dying to your flesh daily, declare it, “Today, I die to __________________________ and I give Jesus all of me right now. Right now, my heart and mind are being renewed in Jesus’ name.

You can also write Jesus a letter, expressing your feelings, struggles and pour out your heart to Him. There’s power in journaling…I’ve gotten more messages from God and not just that, something about processing your feelings and letting them out in writing, there’s something liberating about that…I do this often and have had many breakthroughs journaling to God.

After you write it, listen in quiet with your bible open for His directives. Pay attention to messages, from people, you’re environment, look all around you because God speaks to us in a variety of ways and not always through thunder and lightning.

I’m just getting started with this topic. Continue to join me as I share with you what Christ is sharing with me about overcoming. As always, Be Encouraged, Stay Connected, Fight & Let’s Become Free Together.

Yours in Christ,

Ke’Shawn Hill-Adamson

B.O.O.M!

I feel very unworthy of this gift, in my husband and just being married. I made ALOT of mistakes choosing what I thought was the best. After hitting my head on the brick wall with the men I chose, I resolved to let The Lord pick him this time and He did. He gave me His best.

Sometimes, God’s trying to give us His gifts, but in our limited perception, we don’t see what He’s giving us as a gift. We’ll present The Lord with our request, but if it’s not packaged how we think it should be, we’ll automatically not consider it, thus, discarding his gift as unworthy.

I almost squandered several gifts The Lord was trying to give me because it wasn’t what I wanted, it wasn’t the right timing or I’d reason that thing to death that it was no longer valuable.

I did that with motherhood. I wasn’t ready to become a mom when I became one. I was in the process of losing my job, I was obese, the apartment too small, not enough money etc. I was dying to be a mother, but I wasn’t ready at that moment, but God thought different and sent my baby girl. I thought I had joy before, but my life would be so void and empty without that addition to our family and that lil sparkle and bundle of joy. Through her, I’ve grown in my faith, my life richer, The Lord used her to teach me some foundational lessons in Him and, my worship and intercessory prayer has deepened. I honed spiritual gifts having her.

The same goes for my husband. He was just starting out in his career, a young single parent, struggling to make ends meet and trying to get on his feet. I was accomplished, several degrees, managing an office etc. I was looking for what the world says is important, money, status, degrees etc. Chasing the things of the world, I almost missed my husband and the gift The Lord was giving me in him.

Don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t wrong for wanting someone to have what I worked hard to accomplish and you do want someone who can bring something to the table. But sometimes, God has different plans. He’ll use us, as women, to bring out the best in that man, to help to build them up, to be a helpmate to them to get them to that higher level and vice versa.

Initially, I didn’t get that blue Tiffany box with that big white bow on top, but over the years, I have it now. He’s licensed Minister, Licensed Drug Counselor, College student with a host of certifications and recognitions earning a good living taking care of His family and proudly doing so. We built that together and more in love because of it.

Sometimes, He’ll allow those struggles you go through together to bind you closer. Sometimes, He’ll use those trials to give you perseverance and grit to make you stronger and wiser as a couple. Sometimes, He’ll leave certain things undone so as a team, you can appreciate one another more and build your life together.

The other men I dated couldn’t love me because they weren’t assigned to me. The truth is, plain and simple, they were just too shallow and for smaller things, the commitment wasn’t there. In marriage, life happens…death, life, finances, illness, obesity all manor of life’s hardships, the most horrific things happen, and through it all, it’s made my husband and I stronger when most, would have left.

But God is gracious, He not only gave me what I needed, but as I surrendered to Him, He gave me what I wanted in my Husband once I was open to His ways, how He wanted to do things and became obedient in following Him even when I didn’t understand.

If God is speaking to you about something, trust Him and surrender. He may be trying to give you what you’ve never had, His greatest gift, His greatest blessing and, something you really really need. Don’t do as I’ve done, reason the blessing away and almost, miss a part of your calling. It’s not a matter of what we see, it’s a matter what we know our Big God can do.

There’s more for us as we get out of our own way and receive the gifts Christ’s trying to give us.

Truly grateful to be sharing my life and dreams with a Richard, He’s truly my gift from Heaven.

Continue to Join me as I share with you what Christ is sharing with me about overcoming. As always, Be Encouraged, Stay Connected, Fight & Let’s become free together.

Yours in Christ,

Ke’Shawn Adamson

B.O.O.M!

Enjoy the pics!

This song touches my heart deeply, makes me grateful to Christ and reminds me of my love for him but also, reminds me of my Richard. Enjoy!

I don’t know what transpired, one moment I was fine and the next thing I knew I was laying on my couch feeling like my life was being sucked out of me. Have you ever felt so fatigued from fighting storms that you feel like your breathing your last breath, like your going to literally pass out?  I can count on one hand this happening and this was beyond scary.

As I laid on my couch pleading to Jesus to help me, I felt myself spiraling to what felt like unconsciousness and out of nowhere, there popped my little one and said in her sweet little voice, “Mommy, I’m sorry to tell you this, but I broke the cabinet in the bathroom….”  All of a sudden, whatever satan was doing, God blocked it through my daughter and I came too. I went straight into Mommy mode and by the time I finished dealing with that, I forgot what happened.

But what in the world happened?  I’m tired, yes, I wear many hats, yes, I’m struggling and fighting obesity, yes, I’m in a LOOONNGG season of wilderness and process of inner healing, yes and on and on and on, but what really happened?

It wasn’t until I was having a conversation with my husband about my struggle and frustrations of my many fallings, failures and setbacks with fighting obesity, that on the inside, what I didn’t know was there was a monstrous rage and self-hatred brewing on the inside eating me alive.

The conversation between my husband and I was pretty normal at first, it started off with me venting about being frustrated with my weight struggles and the next thing I knew, I felt an uncontrollable rage spring up in me and I started yelling, crying and banging on my bed, “I’M TIRED OF ALL THIS FIGHTING, I’M TIRED OF FIGHTING AND FIGHTING AND FIGHTING, I’M SO SICK OF FALLING, I HATE WHAT I’VE BECOME, I HATE HOW I LOOK, I HATE MY BODY, I HATE IT…I HATE IT…I HATE IT….”

He sat quietly and allowed me space, but tried to wheel me back in but I couldn’t hear him because I was so enraged.  For those that know me, I’m usually pretty calm and in control of myself and my temper, but this day, it was about 20 years overdue of deep seeded unconscious and secret hate, anguish, guilt, shame and unforgiveness that was erupting within me that was slowly eating me alive, killing me, sucking all the life out of me, that in that one moment, my constant state of silence and seeming ok erupted and manifested and hate, guilt, unforgiveness and shame spoke.  To say the least, I was not ok for a couple of weeks.

I spent the next few days fasting and seeking God on what transpired and He began to speak and address what the real issues, that thing I’ve been battling for 20 years were. .

To be continued…

For those of you struggling with something you’ve done or didn’t do in your past, a mistake, a hurt, a pain, a regret, a secret sin, a trauma caused by your own doing, God is speaking to all of us through these scriptures:

Proverbs 24:6

For a righteous man falls seven times, and rises again

Romans 8:8

8 There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus…

²⁶ Likewise the Spirit also helps in our weaknesses. For we do not know what we should pray for as we ought, but the Spirit Himself makes intercession ^[g]for us with groanings which cannot be uttered. ²⁷ Now He who searches the hearts knows what the mind of the Spirit is, because He makes intercession for the saints according to the will of God.

²⁸ And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. ²⁹ For whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brethren. ³⁰ Moreover whom He predestined, these He also called; whom He called, these He also justified; and whom He justified, these He also glorified.

God’s Everlasting Love

³¹ What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can beagainst us? ³² He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, how shall He not with Him also freely give us all things? ³³ Who shall bring a charge against God’s elect? It is God who justifies. ³⁴ Who ishe who condemns? It is Christ who died, and furthermore is also risen, who is even at the right hand of God, who also makes intercession for us. ³⁵ Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? ³⁶ As it is written:

“For Your sake we are killed all day long;
We are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.”

³⁷ Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. ³⁸ For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, ³⁹ nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 7:24-25

²⁴ What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? ²⁵ Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!

Amen! Amen! Amen!

Continue to join me as I share with you what Christ is sharing with me about overcoming.  As always, Be Encouraged, Stay Connected, Fight and Let’s Become Free Together!

Yours in Christ,

Ke’Shawn Adamson

B.O.O.M!

The answer is simply NO! No matter what we go through, our crisis doesn’t change the nature or character of God. God is good and knows nothing but to be good to His children even when He allows us to go through the storms of life. There were times I was utterly disappointed in God for allowing certain things to happen.  It was during my darkest hours after I fasted and travailed in prayer and counted on Him most, is when God at times, answered No!

I lost my father that raised me September of 2007. No words could ever describe the sense of loss, hopelessness and despondency I felt. When we found him in the bed unresponsive, I exercised my faith.  I thought to myself, okay, if the disciples could raise folks from the dead, so can I, for the power of Jesus rests in me too. So, I anointed his body and declared he would live, prayed without ceasing and believed.  My father went home to be with the Lord that very day. Prior to that experience, I always said to God if He took my dad, He and I would have some serious problems. I truly loved Jesus, but after losing so many family members growing up, that was the one prayer I needed him to honor since I had gone through so much with facing death.  Once the doctors said that my Dad passed, all I could do is look up to the Heavens and declare, “I Love You Still!“ At that moment, I died too…

Is God Still Good and Is He Still A Good Father?

My Uncle recently passed away after being in ICU for a month.  Prior to his illness, I truly believed God that He would revive, restore and heal my uncle of a lifetime of afflictions. I believed God for a family reunion with my Uncle and other relatives I hadn’t connected with for a long time. I fasted and prayed and believed that in my lifetime, restoration, reunion and a healing would happen for my immediate family.  During April 2015, I watched my uncle take his last breath after suffering for a month.  All I hoped for, my Uncle’s salvation, deliverance and a temporary family reunion happened in his death. Shattered…

Is God Still Good and Is He Still A Good Father?

How about being faithful over your finances, having great credit and doing your best to be a good steward to one day, losing your job in the midst of having a high risk pregnancy to only have your finances and credit destroyed right before your eyes. How about being a family of four surviving off of one income just barely holding your head above water all the while, ministering hope to others in the midst of your own pain, fatigue and need.

What about when you pray and fast for an answer, but the answer comes in a way that’s unexpected or doesn’t come at all?  When you struggle and strive to keep your head above water expecting God to show up and He’s quiet and you don’t see the provision how or when you need it most? Is God Still Good and Is He Still A Good Father?

In my adult life, I’ve been struggling to conquer obesity. I never struggled with obesity until I became adult and I never understood why for most of my life, I’ve been average weight that I’m struggling so hard.  I’ve made major improvements with my weight loss losing over 70 pounds, but at times, just to gain it back, back peddle or come to a stretching halt even with my greatest efforts. SCREAMING WHY?

I’ve conquered greater and more challenges things in my life, but for some reason, God brought me here and sometimes, I’m unable to move from this place of being stuck. He’s sees me struggling, He sees my sorrow, why can’t He just deliver me. I’m faithful! Why can’t God just give me a special grace to finish or allow it to come a little easier?  He’s God, why can’t He just look my way and just deliver me? SCREAMING WHY?

Paul said it best in Romans 7:24,

Oh, What A Wretched Man I Am…Who Can Save Me?

Who can save us from sin and death? Who can save us from ourselves? Who can save us from drowning…life…satan…grief…obesity…debt…fatigue…hopelessness…suicide…poverty…sickness…fear…addiction…bondage…mental illness…depression…perversion…marital woes…those things strangling and killing us?

In scripture, the answer to who can save us from ourselves and life’s crushing disappointments is Jesus. After many years of searching, I’ve come to learn through heartbreak that Jesus is the only person that can save us eternally and from our afflictions here on earth.  It was through loss, struggle and tragedy, I’ve moved beyond looking for his hand in my life, but Iearned about his face, grace and character.

The bible says Narrow Is The Way and Wide Is The Road To Destruction.  Truth is, The Narrow Way to Christ, fulfilling purpose and receiving Christ’s blessings upon your life comes with a price. It seems like in my life, God takes me the l-o-o-n-n-g hard road, nothing ever comes easy for me and my family. There’s tremendous triumphs and joys in walking with Christ, nothing could be greater, but there’s also the very low lows, the wilderness, the process, the crushing, the pruning, the molding that makes you feel like you’re dying, but it’s the process necessary to receive the fine anointing that turn us into the jewels God desires for us to be.

Scripture says in Hebrews 5:1-4, 7-10

For every high priest taken from among men is appointed for men in things pertaining to God, that he may offer both gifts and sacrifices for sins. 2 He can have compassion on those who are ignorant and going astray, since he himself is also subject to weakness…4 And no man takes this honor to himself, but he who is called by God…7 who, in the days of His flesh, when He had offered up prayers and supplications, with vehement cries and tears to Him who was able to save Him from death, and was heard because of His godly fear, 8 though He was a Son, yet He learned obedience by the things which He suffered. 9 And having been perfected, He became the author of eternal salvation to all who obey Him, 10 called by God as High Priest

We must encourage ourselves, believe God’s Promises and always humbly ask Him, “What is it you want me to do and learn through this process?” and sit at His feet until our answer comes.

I look at myself and the weight I’ve gained utterly disappointed and ashamed, but God had a plan to bring me here, this article, this platform through writing and public speaking to speak to people about finding their purpose through their pain and overcoming.  The struggles I despised has been God’s platform in my makings of being an evangelist and honing the gifts of spiritual warfare and prayer, intercession and worship.

Through my struggles, Jesus is teaching my hands to war and my fingers to fight and He’s doing the same for you too.  It’s through my pain that I’m helping others.

In our process, we MUST be convinced that Yes, God Is A Good God And In-Spite Of, He’s Still A Good Father No Matter What He Allows Us To Go Through. He is not a man that He should lie, His promises are always Yea and Amen and there’s an expected end, a good thing, He’ll bring us to if we let Him.

If God has not lifted a burden from us, we have to stay at His feet until our change comes. We have to humble ourselves to His process for our lives and trust him for the results and the good that’ll come from our suffering.

I’m pressing to reach the end of my finish line, WILL YOU DO THE SAME? DO YOU WANT WHAT HE’S TRYING TO GIVE YOU?

Let’s Press, Hold On and Believe, He’s Relentless To See Us To His Expected End.

WE ARE VICTORIOUS!!!

Yours in Christ,

Ke’Shawn Adamson

I’ve been at such a loss and discouraged at times regarding some backward movement in my weight loss efforts.  So many things have halted my progress, a lot of sickness, my family moving and demands, it’s as though I can’t catch a break.  In addition, I’ve been struggling AT TIMES with old bad habits and deceptions in my mind that has always put me in cycles of sabotage. I’m in desperate need to break these things and feeling at a loss of me fighting me and identifying what and who my giant is?

The Lord has me studying 1 Samuel 17:

16 Goliath challenged the Israelites every morning and evening for forty days.

23 …Goliath came forward and challenged the Israelites as he had done before. And David heard him. 24 When the Israelites saw Goliath, they ran away in terror. 25 “Look at him!” they said to each other. “Listen to his challenge!

26 …After all, who is this heathen Philistine to defy the army of the living God?”32 David said to Saul, “Your Majesty, no one should be afraid of this Philistine! I will go and fight him.”

45 David answered, “You are coming against me with sword, spear, and javelin, but I come against you in the name of the Lord Almighty, the God of the Israelite armies, which you have defied. 46 This very day the Lord will put you in my power; I will defeat you and cut off your head. And I will give the bodies of the Philistine soldiers to the birds and animals to eat. Then the whole world will know that Israel has a God, 47 and everyone here will see that the Lord does not need swords or spears to save his people. He is victorious in battle, and he will put all of you in our power.”

48 Goliath started walking toward David again, and David ran quickly toward the Philistine battle line to fight him. 49 He reached into his bag and took out a stone, which he slung at Goliath. It hit him on the forehead and broke his skull, and Goliath fell face downward on the ground. 50 And so, without a sword, David defeated and killed Goliath with a sling and a stone! 51 He ran to him, stood over him, took Goliath’s sword out of its sheath, and cut off his head and killed him.”

God’s been pointing out the key to these verses:

1. David spoke to his giant and declared what he’ll do to him
2. David knew in his own strength he couldn’t defeat Goliath in his own strength but, could do so “in the Name of The Lord Almighty…”
3. When David spoke, He believed!

So, I’ve been praying to Jesus to help me to identify:

1. Who and what am I really fighting?
2. Who am I feeding when I’m not disciplined?
3. Why can’t I kill my giant and What am I afraid of?
4. What is its name that I may call it out?

So, I’ve been praying and seeking The Lord to answer the above, and then, He lead me to this scripture:

Zec. 4:7

“Who are you, O great Mountain? Before (me) you shall become a plain.  I will (Birth) and BRING FORTH with shouts of GRACE GRACE to it!”

Zerubbabel also, spoke to his giant, his mountain.

I know I can’t help me alone because in my physical eyes, it APPEARS so much bigger than me.  I’ve come to the halfway mark and I’m struggling within myself to finish the course. BUT, I’m encouraged today knowing that even with my struggles, I’m at the brink of a breakthrough and the enemy is trying to stop me, BUT, THE LORD IS TRYING TO TEACH ME HOW TO OVERCOME!

What I know is that inspite of what I’m feeling, I believe that the Good Work The Lord started, He’ll help me finish it and bring this thing full circle to HIS expected end.  He didn’t allow me to start this process only to let me fail. He didn’t allow me to start my deliverance ministry of overcoming for it only to die unfulfilled.

So today, I can’t, we can’t in our own strength to overcome what’s trying to overcome us, BUT Today, we decree and declare to our mountain, our giant in the name of Jesus,

“GRACE GRACE OVER MY MOUNTAINS,

GRACE GRACE OVER MY STRUGGLES,

GRACE GRACE OVER MY GIANTS,

GRACE GRACE OVER MY ENEMIES,

GRACE GRACE OVER MY CALLING,

GRACE GRACE OVER MY DESTINY,

GRACE GRACE OVER MY MARRIAGE,

GRACE GRACE OVER MY FINANCES,

GRACE GRACE OVER MY LACK,

GRACE GRACE OVER MY MIND & SOUL,

GRACE GRACE OVER ANY DEBT,

GRACE GRACE OVER MY DREAMS,

GRACE GRACE OVER SICKNESS,

GRACE GRACE OVER OBESITY,

GRACE GRACE OVER MY FEARS,

GRACE GRACE OVER MY JOB,

GRACE GRACE OVER MY KIDS,

GRACE GRACE OVER MY BUSINESS,

GRACE GRACE OVER MY FAMILY,

GRACE GRACE OVER MY FUTURE,

GRACE GRACE OVER MY MINISTRY,

GRACE GRACE OVER MY ASSIGNMENT,

GRACE GRACE OVER EVERY OPPORTUNITY FOR ME,

GRACE GRACE OVER MY BODY,

GRACE GRACE OVER _________!” IN JESUS NAME, AMEN!

I’m encouraged today that the Grace of Christ is with me, with you, and WE WILL NOT FAIL IN JESUS NAME!!!!!! I’m not going to despise the process, I’m going to press into my promise shouting “GRACE GRACE” at it. 

Continue to join me as I share with you what Christ is sharing with me about overcoming. As always, Be Encouraged, Stay Connected, Fight & Let’s Become Free Together.

Check out this AWESOME video, “Grace, Grace” with Jentezen Franklin

Yours in Christ,

Ke’Shawn Adamson

B.O.O.M!

For the most part, we all tend to start these exercise plans and new ways of eating, but honestly, how long does it last?  A day, two days, weeks, months?  What happens to us that we actively stop pursuing our weight loss goals?

For me, I’m not consistent.  I’ll be sooo regimented for a long time and then I’ll give into my flesh for one moment and that one moment quickly turns into two moments then three, four and then I’m back to square one eating a lil bit of everything and I’ve stopped being diligent.

Another problem for me is that I compromise way too much.  Spiritual Warfare 101, once you kick a strongman out, you need to keep him out.  For me, cakes, cookies, fried comfort foods opens up something in my flesh that I have a hard time controlling.  Once I engage in eating those treats, it’s like I can’t stop reaching or desiring them, hence, another stronghold and my weight loss efforts are back to zero.  It’s a curse and vicious cycle!

An additional problem I’ve always struggled with is night eating.  For whatever reason, in those late night hours, I’m craving junk.  For whatever reason, I wake up out of a dead sleep and I’m ravenous for whatever I’ve deprived myself of during the day.  As outlined in previous posts, nobody’s food is safe in my house when I’m sleep eating, no one, LOL!  You can only imagine the angry faces and tears I’ve encountered after waking up after one of my episodes.

All of the above have been my mountains, my Goliath’s, the strongman that persist in my life while I’m fighting to take back my health.  Since starting B.O.O.M!, I’ve been actively seeking God and confronting the roots to a lot of my issues and have made so much progress.  I’ve managed to lose 75 pounds, able to physically do things I couldn’t at one point so I’m humbled and truly grateful. But, the three struggles mentioned above, I haven’t been able to shake them yet and honestly, these issues sabotage my weight loss efforts in finishing the race.

Now, I know I’m not the only one struggling like this.  There’s millions of people world-wide struggling like I do who have their own story to tell.  Honestly, obesity is suffocating, devastating, depressing and feels like your in a nightmare trapped in your own body and panic-stricken. When I fall, I automatically feel shame, guilt, sadness and I would even venture to say depressed sometimes.

Conquering obesity sometimes, takes the life out of me.  Raising a family, being a support to my husband, family & friends, working in ministry, building a ministry through B.O.O.M!, being a mom of two, running a household, exercising daily, not to mention, trying to heal of roots and issues in why I became obese in the first place and fighting off demonic strongholds, it feels like the life is being sucked out of me…real talk!

It’s super duper hard and not everyday or season I’m feeling very triumph.  During this process, I managed to lose about 75 pounds, TGBTG!  But often, I have to be reminded from my Mom and Husband how far I’ve come and be grateful, which I’m learning everyday.  Sometimes, the daily struggle tends to overshadow the good I’ve done, but I’m learning.

With all that being said, God is not done with me yet…AND…He’s not done with you yet either with whatever you’re struggling with.  I have to always remind myself, Christ died so we’re already free, but sometimes, our becoming free is simply put, A PROCESS!  

Paul says it best in Romans 7:15-25,

I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate. 18b …I want to do what is right, but I can’t. 19 I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway…21 I have discovered this principle of life—that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. 22 I love God’s law with all my heart. 23 But there is another power[e] within me that is at war with my mind. This power makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. 24 Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death? 25 Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord.

Jesus is going to help each and everyone one of us overcome. 2018, we decree and declare, we will not be discouraged, everyday, we will be patient with God’s process and moment by moment, OVERCOME!

Continue to join me as I share with you what Christ is sharing with me about overcoming.  As always, Be Encouraged, Stay Connected, Fight & Let’s Become Free Together!

Jentezen Franklin | FIRST 2018

Yours in Christ,

Ke’Shawn Adamson

B.O.O.M!

During this season, we’re all going through many transitions, hardships, discomforts, changes, etc, but, Christ is reminding us, He’s in the midst of them all.

I hear Him crying out, “For what you can’t do, I can do, pray for the infilling of the Holy Spirit and pray again, and again and again.  My people are trying to overcome on empty, no power, so they’re struggling in their flesh to overcome areas that can only be conquered in the spirit. Once you receive the infilling of the Holy Spirit, you need daily to receive a new infilling for new challenges, for new grace, for additional power for new struggles and giants.  You’re never just filled up once, but you need to be filled up continually again and again and again…”

Acts 1:8
…receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon you; and you shall be My witnesses both in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and even to the remotest part of the earth.”

Salvation is the beginning of our walk with Christ, being baptized by water is an outward confession of our inward faith in Christ, but that’s not it and this is where most believers stop.  Christ is calling out, “There’s more…there’s more!!!”

For us to walk in supernatural power of Christ to overcome our flesh, satan and the world, ” You need to be filled with the Holy Spirit…Pray to be filled with the Holy Spirit to help align you with Christ & overcome what’s holding you back from your ultimate destiny and will bring about your demise…”

For some of us, we’ve been struggling in many areas, for me, I’m being attacked in my body and at times, trying to hold onto my peace of mind.  Christ is calling for His Body to pray for the Baptism of the Holy Spirit, not just to walk closer with Christ, but power to walk victoriously in the areas trying to conquer us.  For the days we’re living in, we need the power of the Holy Spirit to win the victory over our mountains and to overcome the world.

I invite you to pray this prayer with me with power, conviction, authority and boldness.  We decree and declare right now in the Name of Jesus,

“Holy Spirit, fill me, Fill us now in The Name of Jesus.  We decree and declare that the fire of the Living God consume us right now, fill us right now, baptize us right now, fill us again with a new indwelling of your precious Holy Spirit, we receive You now.  We receive the Holy Spirit right now, we have power and fresh annoiting right now to overcome and break, obliterate and overcome our mountains.  Mountains be consumed and strongholds broken right now in Jesus name. Consume us Holy Spirit with your presence and with your Power.  Come right now and tabernacle with us, fill us and break every stronghold, wound and form of wickedness consuming us and fill those voids with your presence. Fire of the living God, fall fresh right now in the Name of Jesus!  It is so, we receive you now, in Jesus Name we pray, Amen! Amen! Amen!”

If you’ve confessed this prayer, believe and receive and continue to join me as I share with you what Christ is sharing with me about overcoming. As always, Be Encouraged, Stay Connected, Fight & Let’s Become Free Together.

Receiving the Holy Spirit – Pastor Robert Morris

Yours in Christ,

Ke’Shawn Adamson

B.O.O.M!

Sometimes, it takes tragedy to quite and humble you.  Sometimes, it takes hardship and pain to force you to your knees in prayer and devotion consistently.  During my life’s journey, I’m learning that you have to MAKE TIME to sit at Christ’s feet to pour out your broken heart to receive rest and encouragement for your weary soul.

Truth is, when all is well, we may pray and seek God’s face, but when disaster strikes, we take prayer and seeking Christ to an entirely different level because we urgently need Him.

I’m learning in this season unlike any time before, with any promise the Lord gives you, there are some mountains He’ll have you climb to get them.  Sometimes, God will miraculously bless and open doors to reward you for your faithfulness, but sometimes, He’ll have you walk through a process, a deep darkness, a valley and sometimes, it’s painful and even unbearable.  Sometimes, with the pressures of ministry, my own struggles, raising a family and the spiritual warfare you undergo walking with Christ, at times, I can feel my chest tighten up with pressure and pain.

In this season of difficulty, when I feel overwhelmed climbing our mountains, I’m learning to sit still, listen to anointed worship music and open up my word and get on my knees in prayer.  Quite, prayer and His Word have been my solace. God speaks in the miraculous in His Word and in His Word, there’s an answer to every need we have. As I’m quite and sensitive to listening to His prompting, He leads me to the scripture that’ll minister to me and my family. Also, I’m learning the importance of really praying with your family and waring in the spirit in the midst of a storm and when we do that, The Lord shows up.

So in the midst of my family and I climbing our mountains, in quite and solitude in The Lord’s presence, I’m learning to receive strength, encouragement and rejuvenation. Special thank you to my jewel, my angel, my lil theologian, My Mommy whose quiet strength, words of wisdom and sacrifices help to hold us together as a family, we [icon icon=icon-heart size=14px color=#000 ]and appreciate you Great Woman of God!!! You are our backbone and often, God uses you prophetically to speak a word that helps us make it through our storms, THANK YOU ETERNALLY!!!![icon icon=icon-heart size=19px color=#FF0000 ]

So, as we’re all going through our various hardships, be encouraged, The Lord of ALL is bigger than any problem, any hardship and our biggest mountains. He’ll come to our aide and walk us through our deepest darkest valley and lead us straight to victory if we faint not.

The scripture The Lord lead me,

Isaiah 50 (GNT)

2 …Am I too weak to save them? I can dry up the sea with a command and turn rivers into a desert, so that the fish in them die for lack of water.
3 I can make the sky turn dark, as if it were in mourning for the dead.” 

9 The Sovereign Lord himself defends me—who, then, can prove me guilty?All my accusers will disappear; they will vanish like moth-eaten cloth.
10 All of you that honor the Lord and obey the words of his servant, the path you walk may be dark indeed, but trust in the Lord, rely on your God.
11 All of you that plot to destroy others will be destroyed by your own plots. The Lord himself will make this happen; you will suffer a miserable fate.

Continue to join me as I share with you what Christ is sharing with me about overcoming. As always, Be Encouraged, Stay Connected, Fight and Let’s Become Free Together.

“Quietly” – A new Instrumental Piano Album from Scripture Lullabies

Your’s In Christ,

Ke’Shawn Adamson

B.O.O.M!