I often hear that when it comes to weight loss, most people’s down fall is lack of consistency or commitment. These are two major reasons, along with unaddressed woundedness, that has A-L-W-A-Y-S prevented me from reaching my weight loss goals. In my fight to overcome obesity, I’ve been on a good track, however, there’s a part of me that loosens the reigns, causes me to become complacent and I get thrown off course, only to get back on again. After many days of diligence and then slackness, my soul became weary and discouraged. While praying in church Sunday, I heard the Holy Spirit say within me,
“Let It Go!”
In the midst of praising God, all I could say was, “Have your way Lord, Have your way. I Let it Go! I Let it Go! ” This time, unlike any other time in this entire journey, I’ve truly become weary on an entirely different level. I’m doing so well and seen so many changes. My body is changing and everything about me is so different. So what am I weary of? What do I need to Let Go of?
I’m weary of wavering from time to time. I’m weary that at times, I’m not seeing the scale budge with all my efforts. I’m weary of making poor choices at times and letting food control me. I’m weary and sick and tired of letting my belly dictate what I know to do is right. Do I have restraint, most definitely, and I often practice it, but the wavering from time to time weighs me down how ever often it happens. I understand that we all fall, have shortcomings, weaknesses and there’s a need to make allowances for those things, but you know when God is pricking at your heart about something you need to change and you just haven’t yet. So God’s been pricking at my heart about not allowing ANYTHING TO CONTROL ME and finishing this race.
As I’m writing this post, the Lord just brought back to my remembrance the following scripture He asked me to turn to one day but I never made the connection until just now:
1 Corinthians 6:12 (NLT)
You say, “I am allowed to do anything”–but not everything is good for you. And even though “I am allowed to do anything,” I must not become a slave to anything.
I realize in my wavering, I’m letting food control me. Am I obsessed with food, absolutely not, but I’m guilty of letting my hunger, my palate, my taste buds, my flesh, my craving to dictate what I do from time to time and there’s too much to lose and so much at stake. My purpose is all tied up in me finishing this race and I can’t afford to waiver. I have to begin to think like a fighter.
As I was talking to my husband about this, I brought up his former training he’d have to undergo being a former boxer. As I reflected on the years of stories he told me of what he had to do to win his fights, it was intense. He had to develop a fighters mentality to go in, win and come out unharmed. If He didn’t, his opponent would not only win, but could put a serious hurtin’ on him, perhaps kill em’. He had to develop a plan on how he needed to conduct his entire life to ensure his victory: developing a strict eating regime, sacrificing his social life, love life, developing an exercise and training regime, studying, researching and sparing to prepare himself to win. This process is not only sacrificial, but it’s arduous and painful. When you’re a fighter, you push aside the pain for the ultimate goal, winning. Everything in his entire life had to be put under subjection, be put on hold or done away with until he accomplished his goal, walking away from that fight victorious and unharmed.
If I’m going to finish this course, I have to be willing suffer a little, do without a little, sacrifice a lot to get where God’s sending me. The sacrifices are going to hurt, but I have to be willing to die to everything that stands in my way of birthing the new me.
If God set a course before me, I won’t ever get there haphazardly or wavering. I have to focus and throw away EVERYTHING that ensnares or causes me to stumble. After all, I have the spirit of the Living God on the inside of me and His word says that when He died, I was set free from the curse of sin and death, therefore, I have resurrecting power and backing from Heaven to say NO to anything standing in my way. Nothing has power over me unless I give it permission to have power. So Sunday, I took back my power and said NO MORE to the very thing controlling me…Food. Since then, for 3 nights in a row I haven’t sleep eaten and I’ve been focused and unwavering in my eating regime. TGBTG! That’s big for me.
So for those of you struggling with anything or have a shortcoming, Be Encouraged with the same words the Lord ministered to me:
Hebrews 12:2
I fix my eyes and look directly at (YOU) Jesus… BECAUSE OF THE JOY AWAITING (You), (You) ENDURED…(So I Endure and Retrieve My Prize)Philippians 3:13-14(NLT)
13…I have not (arrived), but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past (and what lies behind me) and (I) look forward to what lies ahead, 14 I press on to reach the end of (my) race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling (me).Romans 8:12-14 (NLT)
… (I) have no obligation to do what (my) sinful nature urges (me) to do…by the power of the Spirit (I) will put to death the deeds of (my) sinful nature AND I will live.Romans 6:6-8 (NLT)
(I know) that (my) sinful (inclination, desires) were crucified with Christ so that sin might lose its power in (my) life. (I am) no longer (a) slave to sin. 7 For when (I) died with Christ, (I) was set free from the power of sin. 8 And since (I) died with Christ, (I) know (I) also live with him.Romans 6:11(NLT)
(I am) dead to the power of sin and alive to God through Christ Jesus.Psalm 46:5 (NIV)
God is within (me), I will not fall; God will help (me) at break of day.
In Jesus Name, We Will NOT Be Defeated! Continue to join me to as I share with you what God is sharing with me about overcoming. As always, Be Encouraged, Stay Connected, Fight and Let’s Become Free Together!
Lisa Nichols on Rescuing Yourself, Overcoming Fear, and Finding Success By Serving Others
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8x_lSBL1bBc&index=1&list=PLAiRMNVsiKko58ZPUZc0ay25krUVcd52H
In His Name,
Ke’Shawn Adamson
B.O.O.M!
