THE CURSE OF CYCLES
What happend in my life that I became Morbidly Obese? Was it something I ate, something I did? Was I glutenous? How does one get Morbidly Obese? How does someone ALLOW themselves to become not just obese, but Morbidly Obese?
For me, it wasn’t a decision, it wasn’t any one thing I did, for me, my body began to gain weight no matter what I ate. In my early twenties, my body just didn’t metabolize things well and the weight gain seemed to have crept up on me overnight. I always ate the same way and I did love to eat, but, I was mindful what I ate, but something shifted for me that I’d just put on weight.
Some may ask, “how could you allow yourself to get that big…if you knew you we’re gaining weight, why didn’t you stop it…why would you allow yourself to get morbidly obese?” Great question! The truth is, It’s not something you plan, it’s a series of daily insignificant choices that one day, leads you to a detrimental place, the same way sin creeps up on you.
For most of us that put on a significant amount of weight, the weight just seems to sneak up on you overnight. One day, you put on 5 pounds, then 10…10 turns to 20…30…50 and it keeps going and it seems like overnight, you’ve put on 70 pounds or more and find yourself obese, sometimes, morbidly obese.
It’s just like sin, you do a little this, you do a little that and one day, you’re in a stronghold. Obesity is no different, it starts off with small eating habits, a way of thinking or behaving and slowly, you begin to gain weight day by day until one day, it’s out of control and you can’t back track out of it.
What do you do when you’re weight has just gone too far? What do you do when you’re depressed at what you become? How do you break the cycles and strongholds you’ve created and a part of your flesh doesn’t want to cooperate to change?
The hardest part of this ordeal is not just disciplining yourself which is hard in of itself, but its breaking the cycles that got you there. For me, my obesity is not just physical, but it’s more mental and spiritual.
The big question is, what keeps anyone in a state of morbid obesity and how do you break the curse of vicious cycles either in your mind, your heart, flesh and habits? What about those like me that get half way there only to go backwards leaving you in a vicious cycle?
How do you break those types of curses? The quick answer is fasting and praying. But what happens when you fast, pray, rinse, recycle, repeat and again, you are back at square one?
What do you do when you’ve lost some weight, you hit a plateau, your flesh then begins to act up and now, you slowly find yourself going back into old habits. What do you do when you’ve tried everything and you hit the same wall you’ve always hit that’s keeping you in obesity?
This is where I’ve been for the past 20 years and this is what keeps me stuck, the curse of half way there only to turn around and end up regaining the weight again.
This is where I am today, BUT, this is not where I’m going to stay.
As I was writing this piece, I sat there stuck for answers and had to stop short of writing this blog. Then, The Lord spoke to me during Sunday service, I heard Him answer,
Proverbs 24:16 (NLT)
The godly may trip seven times, but they will get up again.
I may not have all the answers, but what Christ is communicating to all of us who have fallen,
“though you may have fallen, my grace is sufficient enough that you may rise again…it may not all come together over night, but as long as there’s breath in your body, you can rise up, fight and win, just don’t give up…you can do all things in Christ that makes you strong!”
To be continued…
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Yours in Christ,
Ke’Shawn Adamson
B.O.O.M!
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