If I sat here and acted as though I had it all together and this battle I’m in is easy to overcome…I’d be a serious…serious…big fat liar, LOL! I am here to tell you…in the thick of me pressing into God, facing my own demons, the battle within my soul and spirit man, trying to get this weight loss thing under control not to mention having a family and being in ministry…I AM Struuuuugling to say the least.
I’m straight up in the thick of a Battle Zone and I feel like I’m fighting for my life…PERIOD! This week, God had me revisiting some things of my past…that right there…just plain hurts. He’s been ministering to me about my own wounds and I have had to lay bare and naked before him to let Him reveal to me what’s going on within me.
I had a successful eating and exercise regime last week…Great!…Whoohoo! But I ate the wrong thing at the end of the week and that totally threw me off the train and I’ve been struggling ever since. I ate something that opened the door to the enemy and I physically let him in. In my fight to overcome…I’m learning that I can never…EVER… let my guard down.
God gave me a word last week:
Hebrews 12
1…let us THROW OFF (Get rid of) EVERYTHING THAT hinders and the sin that so easily entangles (TRIPS US UP)…
(BE) DETERMINED TO RUN THE RACE that is ahead of us…
God gave me this word last week and I made a conscious decision to throw off those things that caused me to trip and stumble… but towards the end of the week…I let my guard down. I allowed myself to eat one thing I probably shouldn’t have…like many…I ate it because I felt I could…I earned it…it was my reward for a great week…I thought it wouldn’t hurt…I had things under control… but BOY OH BOY WAS I WRONG!
I made one decision through my own reasoning and the enemy took over. This has been my vicious cycle why I can’t lose this weight…I have reasoned and toyed with things too powerful for me…So I have to make a decision to close that door and keep it closed until God says different. I’m forced now to look at my triggers…my choices…and I have to make hard core decisions about what I can and cannot do.
I’ve watched enough people in my life that have struggled with addiction to know that it’s extremely difficult to create a new norm of something you’ve enjoyed or have gotten accustomed to doing. You may stop the addictive behaviors, but there are triggers that can arouse that giant within you by doing certain things, being around certain people and going to different places…you open yourself up to spiritual bondage AGAIN.
I have to learn and accept my limitations, weaknesses and frailties in fighting the war against my flesh. I have to know that there are certain things I can’t toy with and things I can no longer indulge in no matter how I reason it in my head or no matter what the opinions of others are…I have to understand that this war against my flesh is bigger than food.,, THE REAL QUESTION AT HAND IS ‘WHAT IS THE FOOD FEEDING WITHIN ME?’….That is the root and that is the thing that must be pulled out. This is the part of the process that is killer for me.
This battle against my flesh is spiritual…its grueling…its killer…but I know God said it won’t kill me.
The Lord said,
Luke 9:23-24 (NIV)
23 Then he said to them all: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me.24 For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will save it.
I’m willing to do whatever it takes for the sake of the cross and to receive my prize. I’m hurting, no question, but I’m willing to go through this battle, face my giants, and give it my best shot of throwing those things off that causes me to stumble. I don’t want to have to create new norms or make different decisions with certain things I love to do, but I will if it means it’ll help me to win. I’m willing to do whatever I have to do to see my promise land, even if it feels like it will kill me… and God said it won’t kill me…so here I go.
In our fight to overcome, let’s seek God about our triggers, those things that trip us up and causes us to stumble away from the will of God and let’s make a decision that will cause heaven to help us.
WHAT ARE YOUR TRIGGERS THAT CAUSE YOU TO STRAY FROM GOD, YOUR PURPOSE, AND YOUR PROMISE-LAND?
Together, let’s throw them down, deny ourselves and seek Jesus in prayer and fasting. We will always find our help on our knees as we press into Him.
Even in this battle…in our victories and our failures, 2016 is still our year to win. Let’s Go After Our Promises…Let’s Win and Let Us Become Free Together!
Fasting – Answers Are Waiting In His Presence – Jentezen Franklin
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l7GGTLwG6HM
In His Name,
Ke’Shawn Adamson
B.O.O.M!
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