Losing weight for the most part is easy. Simply put, if we exercise, practice portion control and eat the right foods, the weight should fall off…Right? Wrong! Wrong! Double Wrong!!!!! This series, “Dear Obesity, You Don’t Live Here Anymore! Breaking Obesity, Overcoming Morbidity Through Worship” will chronicle my journey and how that one word, “Worship” is helping to change my life.
For the most part, we all tend to start these exercise plans and new ways of eating, but honestly, how long does it last? A day, two days, weeks, months? What happens to us that we actively stop pursuing our weight loss goals?
For me, I’m not consistent. I’ll be sooo regimented for a long time and then I’ll give into my flesh for one moment and that one moment quickly turns into two moments then three, four and then I’m back to square one eating a lil bit of everything and I’ve stopped being diligent.
Another problem for me is that I compromise way too much. Spiritual Warfare 101, once you kick a strongman out, you need to keep him out. For me, cakes, cookies, fried comfort foods opens up something in my flesh that I have a hard time controlling. Once I engage in eating those treats, it’s like I can’t stop reaching or desiring them, hence, another stronghold and my weight loss efforts are back to zero. It’s a curse and vicious cycle!
An additional problem I’ve always struggled with is night eating. For whatever reason, in those late night hours, I’m craving junk. For whatever reason, I wake up out of a dead sleep and I’m ravenous for whatever I’ve deprived myself of during the day. As outlined in previous posts, nobody’s food is safe in my house when I’m sleep eating, no one, LOL! You can only imagine the angry faces and tears I’ve encountered after waking up after one of my episodes.
All of the above have been my mountains, my Goliath’s, the strongman that persist in my life while I’m fighting to take back my health. Since starting B.O.O.M!, I’ve been actively seeking God and confronting the roots to a lot of my issues and have made so much progress. I’ve managed to lose 75 pounds, able to physically do things I couldn’t at one point so I’m humbled and truly grateful. But, the three struggles mentioned above, I haven’t been able to shake them yet and honestly, these issues sabotage my weight loss efforts in finishing the race.
Now, I know I’m not the only one struggling like this. There’s millions of people world-wide struggling like I do who have their own story to tell. Honestly, obesity is suffocating, devastating, depressing and feels like your in a nightmare trapped in your own body and panic-stricken. When I fall, I automatically feel shame, guilt, sadness and I would even venture to say depressed sometimes.
Conquering obesity sometimes, takes the life out of me. Raising a family, being a support to my husband, family & friends, working in ministry, building a ministry through B.O.O.M!, being a mom of two, running a household, exercising daily, not to mention, trying to heal of roots and issues in why I became obese in the first place and fighting off demonic strongholds, it feels like the life is being sucked out of me…real talk!
It’s super duper hard and not everyday or season I’m feeling very triumph. During this process, I managed to lose about 75 pounds, TGBTG! But often, I have to be reminded from my Mom and Husband how far I’ve come and be grateful, which I’m learning everyday. Sometimes, the daily struggle tends to overshadow the good I’ve done, but I’m learning.
With all that being said, God is not done with me yet…AND…He’s not done with you yet either with whatever you’re struggling with. I have to always remind myself, Christ died so we’re already free, but sometimes, our becoming free is simply put, A PROCESS!
Paul says it best in Romans 7:15-25,
I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate. 18b …I want to do what is right, but I can’t. 19 I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway…21 I have discovered this principle of life—that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. 22 I love God’s law with all my heart. 23 But there is another power[e] within me that is at war with my mind. This power makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. 24 Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death? 25 Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord.
Jesus is going to help each and everyone one of us overcome. 2018, we decree and declare, we will not be discouraged, everyday, we will be patient with God’s process and moment by moment, OVERCOME!
Continue to join me as I share with you what Christ is sharing with me about overcoming. As always, Be Encouraged, Stay Connected, Fight & Let’s Become Free Together!
Jentezen Franklin | FIRST 2018
Yours in Christ,
Ke’Shawn Adamson
B.O.O.M!
