So, It’s now Day 2 of getting back on track from all of the holiday fun and food and the question of the day might be, “How’s your weight loss program coming along?” My reply would be “Ummm…I need to go back to the drawing board…Again!” I need a couple of do-overs…LOL!
I’m not naive, I didn’t expect to hit this thing out the park just starting back, but I did think I could have been more disciplined and not caved in as soon as I did. One thing I’ve learned in this struggle is that you have to know your weak points with anything you’re struggling with. My weak point yesterday was that I waited too long to eat, so by the time I looked up several hours later, I was famished.
As I walked into the dining room to go into the kitchen, the first thing I saw staring at me on the dining table were a couple of pans of chocolate chip chocolate brownies my daughters made the night before. I saw the brownies…I walked passed them…I went in the kitchen to fix myself a meal…out of no where my direction changed and without intention…I reached in the kitchen drawer…pulled out a knife and detoured to those brownies and cut me a good ole piece…just like that, LOL! It was like no thought to what I was doing…that’s amazing in a very horrible way!. We’ll, you know what happend…me fixing a meal was out the window and those brownies were my meal, LOL!
My daughters took pictures of themselves with brownies all over their lips and said “Look Mommy, we have brownies lips…” so yes, yesterday, I too had brownies lips, LMBO! Its funny but that’s so annoying…I started off the eating day with a blast to end it off with brownie lips, so annoying! Also, after almost 24 days of not sleep eating, I caved in a few times and ate. I haven’t sleep eaten every night like I used too but fell off the wagon a couple of times. For me, it was a couple of times too many for that’s all I need for the enemy to get that foot-hold again and he’ll be trying to take over and that’s absolutely not happening – but I have to be careful.
So, I’ve been in prayer flabbergasted saying to God “Okay…where do I even start with getting this thing under control…” I know how to lose weight, my Food Lover Plan works, but what happens when my flesh kicks up, I know to say no and to go into prayer, but what I’ve come to know is that I’m a little ill prepared for this battle and in my heart, I WANT WHAT I WANT, I’M HUNGRY and ITS NOT JUST MY FLESH THAT’S KICKING UP, ITS ME…I WANT TO SATISFY MY CRAVINGS? This is the fight I have with myself…to say NO to something I want. This is when it gets hard for me. This is the battle.
How Do I Say NO To The Very Things I Want In My Heart?
So…I need to take a trip down Romans…the entire book. Romans deals with the foundational truths of our walk with Christ…our position in Him…our freedom and authority in Him and truly identifies the curse of our flesh and temptation and how we can overcome in Him. I remember years ago when I was trying to get a handle on my obesity before the Lord spoke to me in these scriptures and I always felt a stirring and anointing with Romans especially in Chapters 6-8 and on.
So, there are a couple of things I now know that I need to be conscious of and take into prayer:
- I need to EXAMINE MY HEART. I have to know the source of temptation: is it me or is it the devil? I realize there are some things in my own heart I need to pluck out with the Holy Ghost. I really need to be honest before the Lord and spend time with Him to deal with the desires of my own heart.
- I need to sit down with God and DEVELOP A NEW PLAN for this new season and battle I’m in right now. I’ve had many old plans and God has given me many scriptures on how to overcome, but the rhema word I got in the past may not be the scripture I will need to fight with today, so I have to spend time with Him and let His word speak to me and be ready with a plan when I’m tempted.
- MAKE A COMMITMENT TO CONSISTENTLY MEDITATE ON SCRIPTURE God gives me daily and several times a day to help me overcome. Just like YOU HAVE TO FEED A FIRE TO KEEP IT BURNING, I HAVE TO CONSISTENTLY FEED MY SPIRIT MAN THE SPECIFIC SCRIPTURE GOD GAVE ME TO KEEP HIM STRONG TO OVERCOME. To overcome my sleep eating, I read my word and I spent time with God, but I didn’t meditate on that specific scripture that helped me to overcome originally in Romans 7:6, hence, I fell into temptation.
- I have to KEEP THE VISION BEFORE ME. I have to keep MY GOALS before me. I have to keep God’s Plan before me. I have to be reminded to ultimate goal at hand, the freeing of myself to be in purpose and the freeing of God’s people. If I don’t keep that before me, I will lose focus, go off course and fail..
Truth is, with God, overcoming is possible and isn’t complicated, but it sure doesn’t feel good in my flesh. I’m tired already thinking of the changes I need to implement with all the demands I currently have on my life. Truth is, my life is at stake and so are the people of God. I have too much to lose if I don’t muster up enough strength to go through and feel discomfort. Simply put: It’s very uncomfortable to be uncomfortable and to suffer a little. It FEELS simpler and easier when you’re tempted to just cave into your flesh…B.O.O.M! That’s the plain truth. Either way, I’m either going to suffer fighting for freedom or suffer being a slave…but I will have to suffer. I have to make up my mind to be willing to fight CONSISTENTLY to get and maintain my deliverance even if it feels like it’ll kill me…and it won’t kill me!
You want to know how I got delivered from a ungodly soul tie, I never stopped fighting… even when it felt like it would kill me…so I have to have the same resolve in order to win this battle too.
I will go into further detail of how I got delivered from that ungodly soul tie in “Fight To Keep Your Deliverance” Part 3. God is not finished speaking to me about this topic, so to be continued….Join me on my next blog post.
The one thing God asked of me in writing these blogs is to be transparent…truth is…I’m disappointed in myself for not putting up a better fight these last two days…I made improvements, but I caved in a lot…so I’m disappointment in my heart which doesn’t feel very good to confess…but I pray as God is encouraging me through this scripture, it will minister to you too:
What God is speaking to me:
Romans 8 (NLT) Life in the Spirit
1 So now there is no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus. 2 And because you belong to him, the power[a] of the life-giving Spirit has freed you[b] from the power of sin that leads to death…11 The Spirit of God, who raised Jesus from the dead, lives in you.12 Therefore, dear brothers and sisters,[e] you have no obligation to do what your sinful nature urges you to do. 13 For if you live by its dictates, you will die. But if through the power of the Spirit you put to death the deeds of your sinful nature,[f] you will live…. Now we call him, “Abba, Father…”16 For his Spirit joins with our spirit to affirm that we are God’s children.17 But if we are to share his glory, we must also share his suffering.18 Yet what we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory he will reveal to us later…23 And we believers also groan…25 But if we look forward to something we don’t yet have, we must wait patiently and confidently.)
26 And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words. 27 And the Father who knows all hearts knows what the Spirit is saying, for the Spirit pleads for us believers[l] in harmony with God’s own will. 28 And we know that God causes everything to work together[m] for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them….32 Since he did not spare even his own Son but gave him up for us all, won’t he also give us everything else?…
34 Who then will condemn us? No one—for Christ Jesus died for us and was raised to life for us, and he is sitting in the place of honor at God’s right hand, pleading for us…
36 (As the Scriptures say, “For your sake we are killed every day; we are being slaughtered like sheep.”[o])37 No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us. 39 No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 7:24-25 (NIV)
24 What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? 25 Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!
I don’t have to feel bad…Christ will help me AND HE WILL HELP YOU TOO.
Let’s continue to fight and let’s become free together!
In His Name,
Ke’Shawn Adamson
B.O.O.M!
This song by Lauren Diagle “My Revival” encourages me, may it encourage you too!
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