My husband said to me the other night, “since you’ve started this blog, I’ve watched you go through a lot…I’ve had to sit by and watch you sad…I’ve walked in the room and seen you crying and wouldn’t know why until we talked…you’ve been going through a lot…but one thing…I’ve been going through this process with you!”
That statement was the absolute truth. This has been a heart wrenching painful process…but in the midst of pain, it’s full of promise and new birth. For the first time, I’m allowing myself to feel, grieve and cry out to God over my feelings of grief, loss, abandonment and loneliness over losing my family. I have a lifetime of tears over the loss of my family…so now, with my new understanding, I’m allowing God to take me through a journey of fixing what’s crippled on the inside to heal my behavior on the outside…He has a lot to say to me, to us, as I face my pain.
When you sit before the Lord in the midst of pain, there’s a divine exchange in the sitting…in the quieting of yourself in His presence. He has so much to say and do if we position ourselves to hear and receive His comfort.
The Lord wanted to re-visit the previous scripture He left us with in the last post, “RISE!” Part 1:
John 5:1-9 (NKJV)
…1 Jesus went up to Jerusalem. 2 Now there is in Jerusalem by the Sheep Gate a pool, which is called in Hebrew, Bethesda…3 In these lay a great multitude of sick people, blind, lame, paralyzed, waiting for the moving of the water. 4 For an angel went down at a certain time into the pool and stirred up the water; then whoever stepped in first, after the stirring of the water, was made well of whatever disease he had.
5 Now a certain man was there who had an infirmity thirty-eight years. 6 When Jesus saw him lying there, and knew that he already had been in that condition a long time, He said to him, “Do you want to be made well?”
7 The sick man answered Him, “Sir, I have no man to put me into the pool when the water is stirred up; but while I am coming, another steps down before me.”
8 Jesus said to him, “Rise, take up your bed and walk.” 9 And immediately the man was made well, took up his bed, and walked.
That man sat in his condition for 38 years…WOW!…38 years! Can you imagine dealing with a debilitating disease or condition for 38 years where you couldn’t even help yourself and you’re reliant on others. I had a small taste of that after I gave birth to my daughter and that was horrific enough and only occurred for a few months…but 38 years? Unimaginable!
That crippled man felt helpless…hopeless…he felt sorry for himself. What a pitiful view…crippled…begging…waiting for someone to help him…no help at all…and at every rare opportunity…no matter what he did or how HE positioned himself, he would miss His healing.
God is asking ALL OF US, “Are You Crippled?”
God is saying, “If you have a pain, a sore spot, a scar, or a wound in your soul…it has crippled you. If that scar occurred 5 minutes ago or 43 years ago, in one way or another, it has affected you…your relationships…your decisions…habits…your mind…perceptions…trust…your ambitions…dreams…calling…healing…ministries… your purpose and so on.
“You can’t carry pain or hurt in your heart and it never manifest or affects some area of your life. That pain has the potential to destroy and bring death upon anything concerning you. You can’t keep going and sweep your pain under the carpet and say times heals all things…time allows you space to grieve or create new normal’s but it never FIXES the scarring and it will never go away…it just gets buried alive. In John 5:6, before I healed that crippled man, I asked him a question, ‘Do you want to be made well?’
“In other words, ‘DO YOU REAALLY WANT TO BE MADE WELL?”
Continue to join me on my upcoming post, “RISE!” Part 3 to continue to hear what thus saith the Lord and how He wants to help us…He has a lot to say.
I will leave you with this scripture:
Isaiah 61:1-3 (NLT)
(Jesus was sent) to comfort my (broken heart). (He tells me that I that have been held) captive, I am released…I have been imprisoned) I am freed. HE SAYS IN YOUR MOURNING…IT IS TIME, THE LORD’S FAVOR HAS COME, and with it, the day of God’s anger against your enemies. Instead of my mourning, He exchanges it for a crown of beauty instead of ashes, a joyous blessing instead of mourning, a festive praise instead of despair.
As always, stay connected and Let’s Become Free Together! Remember, 2016 is our year to win and have unprecedented victory in Jesus.
Check out this song by King & Country…it brings me so much comfort every time I hear it and the video is amazing!
for KING & COUNTRY – Shoulders (Official Music Video)
In His Name,
Ke’Shawn Adamson
B.O.O.M!
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