As I reflect on the suffering I endured as a result of obesity, if I’m honest, I feel bad for that girl, the old me, who really went through, the pain I endured not just in my body, but in my heart and soul. I harbored a lot of secret pain in my heart about how I felt about myself and how I felt God looked at me…not only did I fail myself, but I let Him down.
I walked around for years having a guilt and shame based nature over things I’ve done and didn’t know how to change which always left me feeling low and wanting to isolate myself. This battle with obesity has been a vicious cycle of self-sabotaging, low-self-esteem, low self-image and most importantly, guilt and shame that caused me to think that I’ve disappointed God, my True Love, the One I love and live for. There is no greater depth of sorrow than to think that the Father of all, The Savior of the World, The True and Living God is angry with you and you’re a disappointment to Him because you failed at something.
God is truly dealing with me in the area’s of identifying strongholds in my mind. The strongholds of erroneous patterns of thinking that we’ve adopted at some point where the enemy told us a lie, we’ve embraced the lie and it became a part of who we are and how we perceive the world around of and from there, how we make decisions.
The bible say’s in 2 Corinthians 10:3-7 (NKJV),
3 For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh. 4 For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, 5 casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ, 6 and being ready to punish all disobedience when your obedience is fulfilled.
7 Do you look at things according to the outward appearance?
As people, we look at someone’s actions, but there’s always a root as to WHY we do what we do. The bible also say’s in Proverbs 23:7,
As a man thinks in his heart, so is he.
The Lord wants all of us to ask Him,
What are the lies, those strongman, operating in my heart and soul that separate me from you and your truth?
As I’m fighting to overcome obesity, I realize now there are certain lies the enemy planted in me that I need to uproot in order to renew my mind. Not everyone struggles with obesity, but everyone struggles with something. This journey goes far beyond fixing behavior, it’s goes far beyond losing weight because all those things are just surface. Whether you’re trying to overcome obesity, struggling with habits of rebellion, disobedience, lying, lust, various addictions, indulging in witchcraft, idolatry, etc., all these things stem from a lie, a stronghold we’ve embraced that has lead, dictated and skewed our perception of life, how we see the people around us, what we think about God and what He truly thinks about us.
God wants us to know the truth about our struggles. The bible say’s in Matthew 12:29 (NKJV)
29 Or how can one enter a strong man’s house and plunder his goods, unless he first binds the strong man? And then he will plunder his house.
We have to be willing to seek God to identify the strongman over some of our habits, behaviors, over our thinking that prevents us from going further in life and especially, further in Christ. As we seek Him through prayer and fasting, we’ll receive the truth about our own shortcomings, those arguments, those lies we’ve embraced that exalts itself above Him. The bible say’s let NOTHING BE YOUR MASTER and goes onto to say let nothing enslave or control you. Christ has given us power to conquer everything trying to conquer us in Jesus but sometimes, God will require us to fight through a process to see our deliverance.
God wants the fallen warrior, the bound warrior, the injured warrior, the complacent warrior, the wounded warrior, those great men and women to RISE, STAND and FIGHT. He’s given us what we need in Jesus and He’s asking us to take a hold of it, to seize His deliverance like our life depended on it because at the end of the day, it does.
I’m going to be going on a 21 day fast for the month of November starting November 1st. For those of you that would like to join me, please leave your name in the comments section below. Also, feel free to inbox me a prayer request on B.O.O.M!’s contact form or email me at boom4christ@hotmail.com so I can lift your specific need up in prayer.
Continue to join me as I share with you what Christ is sharing with me about overcoming. As always, Be Encouraged, Stay Connected, Fight and Let’s Become Free Together.
Strongholds 2 – John Paul Jackson
In His Name,
Ke’Shawn Adamson
B.O.O.M!
