I’ve come to understand one thing in life…there are just some struggles God doesn’t simply deliver us from. No matter how much we pray, attempt to live a righteous life, be good to others, give away all we have, help with every need in our churches, there are just some things God will purpose for us to walk through even when we feel like it’s crushing us in the process. In Our Struggle, If God Allows Us To Go Through, Does That Make Him Bad And Less Of A Good Father? I’ve come to learn the answer to that question, but it took a lot of tears and agony for me to have that revelation.
The answer is simply NO! No matter what we go through, our crisis doesn’t change the nature or character of God. God is good and knows nothing but to be good to His children even when He allows us to go through the storms of life. There were times I was utterly disappointed in God for allowing certain things to happen. It was during my darkest hours after I fasted and travailed in prayer and counted on Him most, is when God at times, answered No!
I lost my father that raised me September of 2007. No words could ever describe the sense of loss, hopelessness and despondency I felt. When we found him in the bed unresponsive, I exercised my faith. I thought to myself, okay, if the disciples could raise folks from the dead, so can I, for the power of Jesus rests in me too. So, I anointed his body and declared he would live, prayed without ceasing and believed. My father went home to be with the Lord that very day. Prior to that experience, I always said to God if He took my dad, He and I would have some serious problems. I truly loved Jesus, but after losing so many family members growing up, that was the one prayer I needed him to honor since I had gone through so much with facing death. Once the doctors said that my Dad passed, all I could do is look up to the Heavens and declare, “I Love You Still!“ At that moment, I died too…
Is God Still Good and Is He Still A Good Father?
My Uncle recently passed away after being in ICU for a month. Prior to his illness, I truly believed God that He would revive, restore and heal my uncle of a lifetime of afflictions. I believed God for a family reunion with my Uncle and other relatives I hadn’t connected with for a long time. I fasted and prayed and believed that in my lifetime, restoration, reunion and a healing would happen for my immediate family. During April 2015, I watched my uncle take his last breath after suffering for a month. All I hoped for, my Uncle’s salvation, deliverance and a temporary family reunion happened in his death. Shattered…
Is God Still Good and Is He Still A Good Father?
How about being faithful over your finances, having great credit and doing your best to be a good steward to one day, losing your job in the midst of having a high risk pregnancy to only have your finances and credit destroyed right before your eyes. How about being a family of four surviving off of one income just barely holding your head above water all the while, ministering hope to others in the midst of your own pain, fatigue and need.
What about when you pray and fast for an answer, but the answer comes in a way that’s unexpected or doesn’t come at all? When you struggle and strive to keep your head above water expecting God to show up and He’s quiet and you don’t see the provision how or when you need it most? Is God Still Good and Is He Still A Good Father?
In my adult life, I’ve been struggling to conquer obesity. I never struggled with obesity until I became adult and I never understood why for most of my life, I’ve been average weight that I’m struggling so hard. I’ve made major improvements with my weight loss losing over 70 pounds, but at times, just to gain it back, back peddle or come to a stretching halt even with my greatest efforts. SCREAMING WHY?
I’ve conquered greater and more challenges things in my life, but for some reason, God brought me here and sometimes, I’m unable to move from this place of being stuck. He’s sees me struggling, He sees my sorrow, why can’t He just deliver me. I’m faithful! Why can’t God just give me a special grace to finish or allow it to come a little easier? He’s God, why can’t He just look my way and just deliver me? SCREAMING WHY?
Paul said it best in Romans 7:24,
Oh, What A Wretched Man I Am…Who Can Save Me?
Who can save us from sin and death? Who can save us from ourselves? Who can save us from drowning…life…satan…grief…obesity…debt…fatigue…hopelessness…suicide…poverty…sickness…fear…addiction…bondage…mental illness…depression…perversion…marital woes…those things strangling and killing us?
In scripture, the answer to who can save us from ourselves and life’s crushing disappointments is Jesus. After many years of searching, I’ve come to learn through heartbreak that Jesus is the only person that can save us eternally and from our afflictions here on earth. It was through loss, struggle and tragedy, I’ve moved beyond looking for his hand in my life, but Iearned about his face, grace and character.
The bible says Narrow Is The Way and Wide Is The Road To Destruction. Truth is, The Narrow Way to Christ, fulfilling purpose and receiving Christ’s blessings upon your life comes with a price. It seems like in my life, God takes me the l-o-o-n-n-g hard road, nothing ever comes easy for me and my family. There’s tremendous triumphs and joys in walking with Christ, nothing could be greater, but there’s also the very low lows, the wilderness, the process, the crushing, the pruning, the molding that makes you feel like you’re dying, but it’s the process necessary to receive the fine anointing that turn us into the jewels God desires for us to be.
Scripture says in Hebrews 5:1-4, 7-10
For every high priest taken from among men is appointed for men in things pertaining to God, that he may offer both gifts and sacrifices for sins. 2 He can have compassion on those who are ignorant and going astray, since he himself is also subject to weakness…4 And no man takes this honor to himself, but he who is called by God…7 who, in the days of His flesh, when He had offered up prayers and supplications, with vehement cries and tears to Him who was able to save Him from death, and was heard because of His godly fear, 8 though He was a Son, yet He learned obedience by the things which He suffered. 9 And having been perfected, He became the author of eternal salvation to all who obey Him, 10 called by God as High Priest
We must encourage ourselves, believe God’s Promises and always humbly ask Him, “What is it you want me to do and learn through this process?” and sit at His feet until our answer comes.
I look at myself and the weight I’ve gained utterly disappointed and ashamed, but God had a plan to bring me here, this article, this platform through writing and public speaking to speak to people about finding their purpose through their pain and overcoming. The struggles I despised has been God’s platform in my makings of being an evangelist and honing the gifts of spiritual warfare and prayer, intercession and worship.
Through my struggles, Jesus is teaching my hands to war and my fingers to fight and He’s doing the same for you too. It’s through my pain that I’m helping others.
In our process, we MUST be convinced that Yes, God Is A Good God And In-Spite Of, He’s Still A Good Father No Matter What He Allows Us To Go Through. He is not a man that He should lie, His promises are always Yea and Amen and there’s an expected end, a good thing, He’ll bring us to if we let Him.
If God has not lifted a burden from us, we have to stay at His feet until our change comes. We have to humble ourselves to His process for our lives and trust him for the results and the good that’ll come from our suffering.
I’m pressing to reach the end of my finish line, WILL YOU DO THE SAME? DO YOU WANT WHAT HE’S TRYING TO GIVE YOU?
Let’s Press, Hold On and Believe, He’s Relentless To See Us To His Expected End.
WE ARE VICTORIOUS!!!
Yours in Christ,
Ke’Shawn Adamson
